zavodilaterrarium | Afflatus Solace

Last Edited: 16 September 2025

General

Hello! The name I go by most commonly online is Zavodila. I enjoy art, games, reading, science, etc. Current games of interest are Final Fantasy XIV and Honkai: Star Rail (secondarily, Pokemon Quest and Adventure Town). Feel free to say hi! I am young, so forgive me for some of my naiveté.

Journal Set-Up

The terminology of my journal may be confusing, but a FFXIV player might be able to figure it out. Some of these terms will not be visible as of writing this due to being a free account.

Afflatus Solace = Recent Posts

Great Gubal Library = Archive

Macrocosmos = Reading (Following Posts)

Microcosmos = Filtered Reading

Novice Network = Network

Spells = Tags

Echo = Memories (Fav Posts, I forget about this feature a lot)

Activate Echo = Add to Memories

Adventurer Plate = Profile

Quests = Entries

Share This Quest = Share This Entry

Prioritise Quest = Track Entry

Quest Log = Page Summary

Active Quests = Active Entires

Chat Macro = Sticky

Emote = Current Emotion

Orchestrion Roll = Current Music

Aetheryte = Location

Open Minimap = Permanent Link

Party Chat / Alliance Chat = Reply

Resources = Links

Deployment Tactics = Open/Close Cut Tags

Linkshells = Communities

Crossworld Linkshells = Crossposts

Disciple of the Hand = Style Credit

Lay of the Land = Search

I'm putting the WIPs of any longer or multi-part projects in

corrosivefate just to keep clutter down.

You may or may not notice, but I'm trying to have my journal be fairly mobile-friendly. Most posts that don't fit comfortably on my phone screen will get cropped, but in a way that still looks good on my laptop. However, due to using the aforementioned laptop, big monitors or significant zooming-out might make my journal look a little awkwardly formatted. Shouldn't be unreadable or anything, just unnatural gaps probably.

Posts / Content Warnings

I post whatever comes to mind, and things I create. Be warned that I will occasionally mention my health problems, bad thoughts/dreams, etc. Both my fiction posts and IRL posts might include sensitive topics such as violence/war, surgeries/medication, mental health struggles, bad relationships, and so on. If you want to be extra careful, you can do a check of my interests on my Notion page, as I could bring them up at any time. However, I will try to put anything particularly sensitive behind a cut or details tag. Rarely will I use the NSFW/discretion setting as I prefer keeping things vague-ish instead.

Interactions

No obligations in following me back or providing me with access to your journal. I only have some locked posts, which are just life things (in some cases, the only reason I have them locked is so that friends don't see them, I'm fine with strangers knowing).

Again, I am on the young end of uni students, so if that makes you uncomfortable, feel free to disengage.

Reply to whatever you want, whenever you want, with any length of comment. If I don't want comments, I'll just close comments on that post.

As much as I do get extremely uncomfortable with and disgusted by some people's fictional preferences, I will generally just block and ignore it because I don't have the energy to be out here arguing and whatever. I believe equally that fiction reflects reality to an extent, and that some battles aren't worth fighting.

( People and OCs Whom I Might Mention )

Emote: /wave
Orchestrion Roll: CH4NGE (Self Cover) — Giga

POST EDITS

EDIT 2025-08-12:I realised I could change [padding: 10px] to [padding: 0px 10px 0px 10px] on the overflow: hidden div so that you don't get any extra bit cutting off the top and bottom as you scroll!

EDIT 2025-10-04: I changed the in-page navigation to be more different from the main navigation, and thus more clear.

Preamble

If anyone wants to know the Casual HTML for my fancy (but mostly mobile-compatible) posts so they can workshop something with the same function, here are my templates! Assuming I didn't write them wrong, aha...

Thank you to

zoomieyo for having such a wonderful journal that made me realise the power of the div function! If you're on desktop, you always have the option to rightclick pages/elements for the source code ;p

( Code under cut )

Emote: /shy
Orchestrion Roll: GRANBLUE FANTASY: Versus OST

Over the past week or so, I've been feeling motivation to do art, textiles, check DW, play Hades, some other things... only problem is that I've also been very sleepy, probably at least somewhat bc I've been sleeping during the day and missing meals. I just know that I'll be able to get a little on track if I get myself to have a better sleep schedule again, then I can finally do some stuff I wanted to! I think in some ways, my previous post did kinda help — both making it at all, and the nice people who said hi ^-^

Well, I also have to be awake by 8am and stay awake for most of the day next Monday, so there's some outside pressure... Zav comeback era? lol

EDIT 2025-12-17: OKAY I DIDN'T MEAN THAT I WANTED TO WAKE UP WITH NO SLEEP, IT IS 7:31AM AND I WENT TO BE AT LIKE. 4AM.

The moment I finished everything for semester 2, my energy levels crashed.

I hope they pick up again, cause I can’t even bring myself to read anyone’s DW posts rn. I only have the motivation to check Discord, in terms of socmed interactions. Really, I’m posting this to see if I can encourage something to happen without draining myself further. Well, to further explain why I don’t have energy for DW specifically, I have some systems in place I want to stick to, but those do require more effort than I’m capable of committing right now. Yeah, that’s self-inflicted, but I don’t really want to approach DW the same ‘mindless’ way I approach Discord, I want to be thorough and consistent.

Other than that, I’ve gotten re-obsessed with Hyrule Warriors Legends, which is the 3DS edition of the first Dynasty Warriors x Legend of Zelda crossover.

The copy of the game I bought (I think before the pandemic?) was secondhand, and the person who owned it before didn’t erase the save data. I decided not to reset it either, partly because I didn’t want to lose access to what was unlocked (they hadn’t finished any gamemode anyway), and partly because I felt bad about the idea of personally wiping someone else’s work.

I’ve gone through a handful of fixation periods with this game, but this time I’ve already dreamt about the game and it’s not been even a month since I picked it up again! Last week, I went out with friends, but in the morning of, my half-asleep brain thought as I was waking up, “I wonder what the recommended weapon element is for this outing”.

The reason I thought of this game is actually because of Zelda (and Final Fantasy, I guess) challenge runs.

Recently, YouTube decided I should watch more of them, and they sparked my interest in playing the games again. Problem is, I’m not very good nor interested in the mainline games.

I think I brought this up before somewhere on DW, but I’ve touched MM, ALBW, maybe ALttP and OoT, BotW, HWL, and TFH if memory serves. Yet, out of all these games, Triforce Heroes and Hyrule Warriors are my most played. HWL and TFH because most activities are self-contained, and TFH because of the native multiplayer so I could game with GuiGui and Honguito. I’m just kinda sad I didn’t get to clear the final boss of TFH with them, but I am proud of doing it solo even though I suck at that (my hands were shaking SO bad at the end lol).

… I just realised those are major things I like about FFXIV; all the fun parts are infinitely replayable on a single save file, and you can play with others only when you want to and the co-op is actually good because it’s a big focus of the game. I guess I’m never gonna be a mainline Zelda player aha. Watching others play suits me just fine, though I do enjoy playing even such games when friends are involved.

Emote: /wave
Aetheryte: The Water Temple
Orchestrion Roll: Touch off — UVERworld

I’m still definitely failing, but like, honestly I don’t feel as bad anymore. Handing in my assignments (no matter how bad and late) was apparently all I needed to do to reduce how much I hated life LOL

Emote: /chuckle
Orchestrion Roll: FFXI Gameplay

( It was inevitable. )

Orchestrion Roll: Tomorrow is Closed — Nothing But Thieves

Or just Happy Friday, if you so please.

I’m not doing anything this year because everyone’s busy and tired, including me. I’ve got two assignments and an exam coming up. Don’t tell anyone, but I haven’t started either assignment and I’ve barely looked at the lectures.

Emote: /doze
Orchestrion Roll: 侵蝕 (Cover) — 梓川 (niki)

Now that it’s getting hot again, I have to contend with my mozzie allergy once more. Last night, I cried myself to sleep because being itchy for hours is overwhelming, and I hate insects being in my room. Doesn’t help that I had just barely recovered from my hands being covered in the bites of other bugs. Currently, I have at least 6 mosquito bites. The only general body part that is safe is my head.

Not sure if I brought it up before, but I seemingly developed this allergy sometime in during either winter or spring of last year. My best guess as to the cause is that my immune system was finally worn down by a) long term medication, b) stress, and/or c) my allergic rhinitis becoming more notable after turbinate reduction. It would have been about the 4 year mark of everything getting way worse generally, 2 year mark of turbinate reduction and 24/7 allergic rhinitis, and somewhere under 2 years of daily corticosteroid/allergy medication.

It’s not like I want to skip classes, but I’m just so, so tired. I want to cry everyday and everything is much worse in spring and summer. In a country that only snows in the mountains, my seasonal depression comes from the discomfort of the heat and insects. I’d rather it be consistently cold all the time. At least I’d be able to wear long sleeves without dying to protect myself from bugs and UV.

Emote: /cry
Orchestrion Roll: Eat Your Young — Hozier

Poems
[Dig Down] | [Hunger Pangs]

( Writing under cut )

Emote: /hum
Orchestrion Roll: Good Job — Stella Jang

( Read more... )

Emote: /vexed
Orchestrion Roll: Unlucky Lady — TROY

Lately, my new clothes have been a mix of more standard pieces from brands like UNIQLO, and some slightly more stylistically adventurous pieces from thrift stores.

I’m actually a little mad I never did much thrifting in primary and highschool, because I would have LOVED it. Like, for the longest time, most of my tops were just t-shirts and I didn’t have that many skirts or dresses, even though I’ve always liked that flowy/frilly feminine style (which I think confused my parents at first; why would this girly, unathletic kid not identify as a girl?). To be fair, I would have grown out of a lot of it in primary, but I’ve not changed too much since the first year of highschool. Height- and style-wise, at least. I have put on some weight, annoyingly. Mental and physical health issues, yadda yadda.

Though, I’m still missing cultural outfits. Criticise traditional values all you want (I sure as hell have), but the clothes of the middle/upper-class were BANGER in most or all established cultures. The modern ‘general’ style is cool and all, but it doesn’t take as much inspiration from as many countries as I would like. Unfortunately, I’m too fat for standard Asian sizes so I can’t buy cultural Asian outfits from the source much. I could probably ask my family to get me Latino clothes, but I don’t really talk to them so that feels rude unless they offer first. I could look for styles unrelated to my ethnicity, but it’s not as important to me.

Emote: /twirl
Orchestrion Roll: Soy tu Problema — Adventure Time (Latin Spanish ver)

Once a coincidence, twice a pattern?

Okay so y’know how I went on that whole thing about my sleep schedule? I’m gonna go insane because something I’d forgotten about has come back.

Last semester, my sleep had also been erratic as hell. A little bit into the mid-semester break, I got a laptop and my device limits were mostly removed (yes, I’d started uni with time limits… ask my parents, not me). That same night, my sleep schedule fixed itself. At the time, I’d jokingly chalked it up to the joy of being freer. This lasted at least a couple days, maybe the rest of the break, but the change reverted by the time classes resumed. This didn’t happen in the holidays between semesters or after highschool grad, so I brushed it off as a one-time incident.

However, it’s happened AGAIN. Started a day before the break did, but a couple days straight of sleeping before 12am and waking up after 6am with no naps is UNUSUAL for me nowadays! Okay, technically the weekend connected to the break is still up for grabs by assignments (sigh…) but it’s practically the break!!! Why on earth is the shortest break time precisely when I get my act together?!

Emote: /confused
Orchestrion Roll: A Little Bit Bad (Cover) — KittenSneeze, Tunnelberg, The Musical Ghost

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