Sighhhhhh, extra sleepy but extra wanting to do things

[zavodilaterrarium]

For... idk like a month or two, I've been... in a mood.

I exited my semi-frequent "chatting up Discord strangers" state (though I'd still like it if my irls texted more), and I actually sort of want to do things like coding and going outside (I think I've been singing and standing up at my desk* more too?), but I've also been feeling extra sleepy. Getting sick obviously didn't help, and the new sem is contributing to both the urge to go out and the need to sleep. I wish that napping wasn't so... inconvenient. I dislike that it interrupts things, but it's nice when I don't do it wrong (which is hard to manage, sighhhhh).

Haven't been playing FFXIV much either.

Not because I don't want to, or that I'm burnt out, but I'm in the habit of playing in the evening, which is when the sleepiness hits really hard, and then I have no energy to play. Well, in some ways that's probably for the best. There's only so many times I can queue for the same free trial duties while ignoring the non-duty content without yearning to sub. My ADHD makes time all wibbly-wobbly so it feels kinda like I was playing a lot recently anyway even though I definitely didn't. Still love the game to death though. Actually, I guess this is a positive sign: I would get really stressed when I missed days of Genshin, because I was genuinely addicted to it as a coping mechanism for the quarantine era — not feeling that bothered at missing FFXIV days despite my fixation on it is relieving in a way.

Hahhh, I know there's things I could do to up my energy, but. :gestures: Lack of energy to do those things.

Anyway! I kinda forgot how fun it is to do some friendly (but wild) flirting, especially with other aroace people. Scratches an itch I forgot I had.

Also, I keep realising and then forgetting that even though I use the music section on all my posts, I literally never actually check to see if the people I am subbed to use it, so I might have missed out on seeing some great taste.

* My desk is height-adjustable.