Stress does wild things to you…

[zavodilaterrarium]

I’m still definitely failing, but like, honestly I don’t feel as bad anymore. Handing in my assignments (no matter how bad and late) was apparently all I needed to do to reduce how much I hated life LOL

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[althea_valara]

Hey. Thinking about you, and wishing you well. I hope you're doing okay!

I meant to comment on your Nov 10th post when you posted it, but life got in the way... University can be rough, especially if you are "gifted". For me, most of grammar school and high school were so easy that I just needed to show up and pay attention in class, and I could pass the exam with flying colors. Then came college, and suddenly I had to study and I didn't know how. Honestly, I think a lot of my issues come from being able to cruise through school for so long... I never learned the value of hard work.

But enough about me. I hope university has gotten less stressful and that you're happily spending time with friends and gaming. Just wanted to let you know someone was thinking of you and wishing you well. <3

[zavodilaterrarium]

You're making me a little teary here, thank you <3 I hope things are going okay for you too!

It's a little funny to me, but I haven't technically hit the "I don't know how to study" barrier yet; I overall had the typical "gifted" primary school experience, but mental and physical health started affecting me before any supposed lack of work ethic did — I'm at a point where I don't actually do enough attempting at studying to know if I'm bad at it. For certain subjects, I have historically gone out of my way to learn more and more about them in my own time, but arguably scouring the internet for new information that I easily picked up is quite different than trying to figure out something I didn't understand immediately in class. Frustratingly, one of the problems I suffer greatly from in recent years is brain fog, which limits how well I can process confusing information, so it's hard to say what is because of that and what is because of being used to breezing through academia.

I've pretty much come to the decision to do part-time uni instead of full-time, which should hopefully help, but we'll see! I've been feeling much better now that it's the holidays :D